Present and so on

Today I was paid to have a water fight with a couple of three-year-olds. It was wonderful.

And in exactly eight weeks I am moving to New York. I will be wandering the streets of Harlem, people-watching in Washington Square Park, studying at New York Public Library, shopping senselessly on 14th Street, drinking in Williamsburg, eating in Chinatown, sunbathing in Central Park, visiting MoMA, seeing live music at Terminal 5, taking the 6 train, buying smoothies at Pinkberry, getting my nails done, ordering sesame bagels with cream cheese, getting $3 well drinks on Ladies Night at 1849, dancing at Beauty Bar, laughing in the UCB Theatre, sitting in the SNL audience and living my fucking life.

Dream until your dreams come true.

Waiting

Waiting for the subway to work. This is Grønland station in Oslo. I'm also waiting for a letter from college. Yesterday I found out that all my 59 previously taken credits will transfer if I'm accepted, that's great news. The TOEFL results are the only thing missing. Waiting, waiting,

What I've been doing since December 5th

Oh, I just realized that I hadn't updated this blog between today and the beginning of December. Some new stuff has happened and I have been updating my LiveJournal (yes, I have a LiveJournal, get over it), but I forget to copypaste the updates to this blog.


This was posted December 13th:

(This first passage was written on my way home from work yesterday. It's still true, but it's not a newly fresh wound anymore.)

My heart is fucking broken. I had the early shift at work today and left before most of the kids, including the one who is so fond of me it's insane and adorable. When I told him I had to go, he said no, no, no, no and gave me a look that would've made anyone feel bad. I'll see him Monday and I feel like this. Thinking about leaving him for good, which I'll have to do next summer, makes my stomach ache and my hands numb. No way. No fucking way.

In other news, I'm postponing New York for certain. I've gotten pretty far on my New School (which is the name of the school) application. And I'm visiting the city during easter break. Hello excitement!

Today I bought tickets to Tromsø too! Going there in January to attend the film festival.



Posted January 25th:

I don't know what I'll do if I'm not accepted by The New School. I have no back-up plan, I'm not applying to any other schools, I don't want to attend any other school, I'm just so focused on The New School I can't think of any other schools. Shitttt. Maybe I'll end up working in the kindergarten forever, just postponing and postponing my education. I really don't want that to happen, but what else do I do if I'm not accepted?

I was at TIFF, saw lots of good and not so good movies, had fun, ate, drank, talked, ran after a dog. Maybe I'll write more about the films I saw. Now I'm watching a Law & Order: SVU episode, I've seen it before.

NS NZ WES GPA TOEFL NY BHG

Hello hello. Nothing much to report, I'm still insecure about getting accepted to New School and I've started looking into schools in New Zealand again, but the more I read about NS (New School) the more I wanna go there. It's the perfect school. Peeeeerfect. WES finalized my transcript evaluation on Thursday, I have a 3.41 GPA which I'm very pleased with. So that's another step closer to finishing my application. NS still hasn't received my TOEFL results and my WES documents were sent Thursday or Friday so those are obviously not there yet and that's basically what's missing from my finished application. Arsgfsafghd I'm just waiting and waiting and I'm very nervous and hopeful. What if my essays were craaaaap. I've never written college application essays before and I didn't really get proper feedback on them. What if I'm not accepted. Shit.

I'm visiting New York for eight nights in about seven weeks, wow. I haven't been there since I moved back to Norway in June 2008. Yesterday was the two year "anniversary" of my moving there. Time flies, whatever. Too much of my life - considering I live in Norway - evolves around New York, I'm a nerd.

My job is still amazing and I'm very anxious about leaving the kids, they should have stability in their life and I'm not giving them that by leaving (I of course realize that I am not the most important person in their lives, but I'm a pretty big part of it). And after that I'll probably never see them again, what the hell. The youngest ones will probably forget about me and that's a fucking heart-breaking thought. I'm tearing up, lawlz. I'll have to send lots of pictures and letters from wherever I might be moving and visit every time I go home. Way to move on, yeah.

And I'm also in love with all the actors in Hipsters and the Russian language. :D

EDUMACATION - what to dooo!

I love love love my job and I still haven't fucking heard any goddamn thing from CCNY. I'm considering postponing this whole New York thing another semester. And maybe apply for some other schools (HELLO NEW SCHOOL OMG).

I've decided to make a quick pros/cons list for waiting another semester. I might add stuff later.

Pros:
- Save a lottttttt more money.
- Enjoy my wonderful job another six months.
- Pay off some of my student loan, which will be huge-ass after studying in the US.
- Maybe get into another school. A better, more expensive school.
- Hang out in Oslo a while longer, I am enjoying my life here now.
- Go to TIFF! (The film festival in Tromsø, not Toronto.)

Cons:
- Have to wait another six months to move to New York. (Although I am planning on taking shorter trips there throughout the next semester if I don't move now.)
- Live at home half a year longer.
- Put my life "on hold", sort of. I am living here too, obviously, but my LIFE PLAN for the next three years was to live in NY and now I might not do that yet.
- I'm not 100% sure I'll get to renew my contract at work which ends Dec. 31. I'll have to talk to the bosses.


I don't know what to dooooo. These doubts started a couple of weeks ago and sometimes I think I've made up my mind, but then the next day I'm reconsidering.

We had a christmas party at work yesterday and it was so much fun and my coworkers are awesome and the kids at work are lovely and it's so funnnn and I'll be missing out on the best part if I leave now. The kindergarten opened August 31st this year, I got to join in on the planning a month in advance and getting the routines going after the kids started and we're so not past our "beginners phase". I think next year will be a better year, we'll be more prepared and we know what it's like working there and everyone's more comfortable and we know what the kids are like so it's easier to plan stuff and actually do what we plan and we know what works and what doesn't and and and. I think it would be very fun and good to see a more finished "product" of all our planning before I leave.


HLEP!!!

Taking time to write a short update

I'm not doing a whole lot these days, I don't know, I wish I was writing, but I don't have time to think about it. The last two weeks have been buuusyyy, but I still feel like I haven't done much. I've been working two jobs, in a transition period between my new and old job, but I'm done with my old one now so iz all good. And then I was working and hanging out at the Øya festival which was fun and tiring. I'm working full time in a kindergarten now, but it's completely new so all we're doing is plan stuff and buy stuff and hang out and decorate. It's fun.

I'm staying in Oslo for the rest of the year so if anyone nearby wants to do something sometime, let me know, I don't have a lot of stuff to do.

I envy all of you peoples who are going back to school or starting over at a new school or traveling all over. Enjoy it!

Err, right now (well, on Tuesday which was when I wrote this) Don Martin from Gatas Parlament is walking on the edge of the roof outside my window.