Sånn går no dagan

Ooooh life, is bigger, it's bigger than you and you are not me.
(Hilsen R.E.M.)

I dag har jeg kjøpt to par sandaler, sett på to raringer filme noe tull i Bryant Park, spist burger ved Times Square, sett The Virgin Suicides, unngått oppgaveskriving på høyt nivå. Halvannen uke igjen. Jeg vil være her for alltid.

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And Then There Was One

It's so bizarre to suddenly be all alone in my apartment after nine days of constant company. I'm sitting on the floor where their air mattress used to be with the TV on in the living room so it won't be so quiet. Unfortunately the people on TV were talking about some guy breaking into people's apartments in NYC and the serial killer on Long Island. Maybe quietness would've been better.

A piece of my plastic tooth chipped off today and I really don't want to deal with that shit 1) in New York (or anywhere else outside of Oslo, really), 2) at this point in time, in the middle of TriBeCa Film Festival and right before my exams, 3) ever, anywhere.

I met my favorite professor at the film festival today. We talked for a bit and he's so nice and awesome and it was weird to see him outside of school and I was awkward as per usual.

Fuck, I'm hating this tooth thing. Fuck fuck fuck.

Shoulda, shoulda, shoulda

I bought a new pink lipstick to celebrate/cheer myself up (I don't know which one yet).


The flash makes it look a lot more pink than it is.


I should write my paper(s), I should finish cleaning my room, I should go grocery shopping. I'm watching episode after episode of Mad Men instead. I'm hooked, but that Don Draper is an asshole.

Fall 2011

Introduction to Social Psychology

What role does social influence play in our lives? How do we form stereotypes? A series of
lectures and films introduce the perspectives and research methods of social psychology.
The class also learns to analyze social situations and events encountered in everyday life.
Topics discussed include social cognition; self-perception and self-esteem; perceptions of
others, attitudes, and persuasion; stereotypes, prejudice, and discrimination; intergroup
conflict, obedience, and conformity; aggression and altruism; and human relationships and
attraction. The class closes by considering how we participate in the construction of social
realities.

This quite possibly sounds like the most interesting class ever.

In similar news: the course catalog for next semester is out and I want to take a filmmaking class and a photography class and a psychology class and a screenwriting class and a philosophy class and a film theory class and another filmmaking class and and and, but I don't think I can handle more than five classes (I've only had four per semester so far) and I don't know if my bank account can handle more than four.

Fashion's Night Out

Hey world. What's up, you guys? So yesterday was a pretty eventful day. I was home until pretty late in the afternoon, ordering Asian food with one of my new roommates. She's really cool. And I hastily ordered a bed from Sleepy's because some friends of mine from Norway are being kicked out by the friend they're staying with now and I told them they could stay here. I needed a bed anyway, obviously, but I probably could have gotten it cheaper if I had time to do some research. Sleepy's could deliver the next day which is why I went with that. It's here now and it's very comfortable.

I left to attend some Fashion's Night Out events (google it). I was especially interested in meeting Tim Gunn at the Kate Spade store in SoHo. I got there very early so I just hung around, got a free gin&tonic and bought Gunn's book to get it signed later. I got it signed after waiting in line forever and he was so nice and cute.

O m g this blog entry is so boring. I'm gonna speed things up.

While waiting on the street for my friends some people doing an online ad for Starbucks frappuccinos wanted to film and interview me. What's my favorite Starbucks drink? What's my must-have fashion thing for going out? I said colorful stockings and showed them my most colorful stockings that I luckily was wearing.

I met my friend and we managed to squeeze through the massive high-heeled crowd in SoHo and went into the MAC store. We saw someone signing books and realized it was Sarah Silverman. Coolio.

La la la. We went to Topshop and I drooled some more over The Perfect Shoe and we wandered around forever trying to find somewhere to eat. We found a place.

When I got home I read all about the other FNO stuff I missed - Seth Meyers at Rock Center, NPH at Macy's, Olsens judging karaoke and lotttttts more - and it made me sad, but meeting Tim Gunn was very cool.

Today I'm planning on getting some hangers and possibly some boxes so I can organize my room. And I should read read read school books 'cause I'm already behind.

And I should also attend some 9/11 memorial event. Ouch.

I don't feel like dancing

I'm sitting in the sun on our terrace on the ninth floor wearing wool socks and a blanket - 12 degrees Celsius isn't as warm as it may look when it's sunnnnnnnny - making pretend-schedules for my first New School semester. I love doing this, planning stuff and daydreaming about New York. There are so many courses I wanna take. The Psychology of Men? Hells yesss, but what the hell do I need it for. I need to start thinking a little more practical and a little less omgimgoingtonewyorkijustwannahavefuneventhoughimpaying4354526356dollarsforthiseducation. So, yeah. I'm guessing there'll be more film and writing courses than useless philosophy and psychology courses.

Anyway, these are the courses I've written down so far:
Script Analysis
Developing Ideas For Film
Filmmaking Studio 1
Comedy on Screen
Arts and Entertainment Journalism
Writing for New York City Newspapers and Magazines
Aesthetics: An Introduction to the Philosophy of Art
Integrated Media Production
Twentieth-Century Continental Philosophy: Phenomenology, Existentialism, Deconstructionism
Introduction to the New Journalism
The Psychology of Men
Gender and Popular Culture

And I can only take four courses. What to chooooooooooooooose.

I ♥ NY

You can stand under my umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh. You're welcome.

I'm back from New York. It was aamaaazingly, fantastically awesome. It sort of felt like I never left, with everything being exactly as I remembered it. Almost everything. The Virgin Megastore on Union Square is gone, the little Mexican place near our old subway stop is gone. And so on. Generally my old 'hood was a lot more "cool" now, but that's what happens when prices go upppp everywhere. I saw some of The New School buildings and I absolutely love that neighborhood, right next to Union Square which is one of my favorite squares in Manhattan. I got a tiny tattoo. I met Kine. The weather was wonderful my last couple of days there, so we hung out in parks a lot. I have hhhhot new shoes that are so high-heeled I can't walk in them. We saw street dancers asking for dollars as opposed to change like Obama on subway stations. We ate dinner next to Larry David at Balthazar, walked past Ben Whishaw and his boyfriend in West Village, took the same subway car as Tim Gunn downtown. We saw rats, squirrels, pigeons. We went to a comedy show and was placed on the first row and messed with a lot because we're Norwegians. We ate bagels, pretzels, cheese cake, burgers, gigantic milkshakes (at the Seinfeld café), M&M's with peanut butter. I sat next to some kind of therapist on Starbucks and she was having a phone session with a client right next to me. He apparently had some anxiety and argued a lot with his mother, but it seemed like he finally had gotten somewhere to live and a job.

Only in New York, folks.

So, uhm, yeah.

"Hi Sofie,
Great news: you have been admitted to our Bachelor's Program in Liberal Arts! Congratulations! Additionally, we awarded 59 transfer credits from your previous studies. You will need to complete 61 credits with us to complete your Bachelor's degree.

Your official acceptance packet will be mailed to you shortly.

Best,
[...]
Cory J. Meyers
Associate Director
Office of Admission
The New School
72 5th Avenue, 3rd Floor
New York, NY 10011"


I don't really know what to think right now, but I guess this is where the adventure begins.

Waiting

Waiting for the subway to work. This is Grønland station in Oslo. I'm also waiting for a letter from college. Yesterday I found out that all my 59 previously taken credits will transfer if I'm accepted, that's great news. The TOEFL results are the only thing missing. Waiting, waiting,

What I've been doing since December 5th

Oh, I just realized that I hadn't updated this blog between today and the beginning of December. Some new stuff has happened and I have been updating my LiveJournal (yes, I have a LiveJournal, get over it), but I forget to copypaste the updates to this blog.


This was posted December 13th:

(This first passage was written on my way home from work yesterday. It's still true, but it's not a newly fresh wound anymore.)

My heart is fucking broken. I had the early shift at work today and left before most of the kids, including the one who is so fond of me it's insane and adorable. When I told him I had to go, he said no, no, no, no and gave me a look that would've made anyone feel bad. I'll see him Monday and I feel like this. Thinking about leaving him for good, which I'll have to do next summer, makes my stomach ache and my hands numb. No way. No fucking way.

In other news, I'm postponing New York for certain. I've gotten pretty far on my New School (which is the name of the school) application. And I'm visiting the city during easter break. Hello excitement!

Today I bought tickets to Tromsø too! Going there in January to attend the film festival.



Posted January 25th:

I don't know what I'll do if I'm not accepted by The New School. I have no back-up plan, I'm not applying to any other schools, I don't want to attend any other school, I'm just so focused on The New School I can't think of any other schools. Shitttt. Maybe I'll end up working in the kindergarten forever, just postponing and postponing my education. I really don't want that to happen, but what else do I do if I'm not accepted?

I was at TIFF, saw lots of good and not so good movies, had fun, ate, drank, talked, ran after a dog. Maybe I'll write more about the films I saw. Now I'm watching a Law & Order: SVU episode, I've seen it before.

NS NZ WES GPA TOEFL NY BHG

Hello hello. Nothing much to report, I'm still insecure about getting accepted to New School and I've started looking into schools in New Zealand again, but the more I read about NS (New School) the more I wanna go there. It's the perfect school. Peeeeerfect. WES finalized my transcript evaluation on Thursday, I have a 3.41 GPA which I'm very pleased with. So that's another step closer to finishing my application. NS still hasn't received my TOEFL results and my WES documents were sent Thursday or Friday so those are obviously not there yet and that's basically what's missing from my finished application. Arsgfsafghd I'm just waiting and waiting and I'm very nervous and hopeful. What if my essays were craaaaap. I've never written college application essays before and I didn't really get proper feedback on them. What if I'm not accepted. Shit.

I'm visiting New York for eight nights in about seven weeks, wow. I haven't been there since I moved back to Norway in June 2008. Yesterday was the two year "anniversary" of my moving there. Time flies, whatever. Too much of my life - considering I live in Norway - evolves around New York, I'm a nerd.

My job is still amazing and I'm very anxious about leaving the kids, they should have stability in their life and I'm not giving them that by leaving (I of course realize that I am not the most important person in their lives, but I'm a pretty big part of it). And after that I'll probably never see them again, what the hell. The youngest ones will probably forget about me and that's a fucking heart-breaking thought. I'm tearing up, lawlz. I'll have to send lots of pictures and letters from wherever I might be moving and visit every time I go home. Way to move on, yeah.

And I'm also in love with all the actors in Hipsters and the Russian language. :D

EDUMACATION - what to dooo!

I love love love my job and I still haven't fucking heard any goddamn thing from CCNY. I'm considering postponing this whole New York thing another semester. And maybe apply for some other schools (HELLO NEW SCHOOL OMG).

I've decided to make a quick pros/cons list for waiting another semester. I might add stuff later.

Pros:
- Save a lottttttt more money.
- Enjoy my wonderful job another six months.
- Pay off some of my student loan, which will be huge-ass after studying in the US.
- Maybe get into another school. A better, more expensive school.
- Hang out in Oslo a while longer, I am enjoying my life here now.
- Go to TIFF! (The film festival in Tromsø, not Toronto.)

Cons:
- Have to wait another six months to move to New York. (Although I am planning on taking shorter trips there throughout the next semester if I don't move now.)
- Live at home half a year longer.
- Put my life "on hold", sort of. I am living here too, obviously, but my LIFE PLAN for the next three years was to live in NY and now I might not do that yet.
- I'm not 100% sure I'll get to renew my contract at work which ends Dec. 31. I'll have to talk to the bosses.


I don't know what to dooooo. These doubts started a couple of weeks ago and sometimes I think I've made up my mind, but then the next day I'm reconsidering.

We had a christmas party at work yesterday and it was so much fun and my coworkers are awesome and the kids at work are lovely and it's so funnnn and I'll be missing out on the best part if I leave now. The kindergarten opened August 31st this year, I got to join in on the planning a month in advance and getting the routines going after the kids started and we're so not past our "beginners phase". I think next year will be a better year, we'll be more prepared and we know what it's like working there and everyone's more comfortable and we know what the kids are like so it's easier to plan stuff and actually do what we plan and we know what works and what doesn't and and and. I think it would be very fun and good to see a more finished "product" of all our planning before I leave.


HLEP!!!

Taking time to write a short update

I'm not doing a whole lot these days, I don't know, I wish I was writing, but I don't have time to think about it. The last two weeks have been buuusyyy, but I still feel like I haven't done much. I've been working two jobs, in a transition period between my new and old job, but I'm done with my old one now so iz all good. And then I was working and hanging out at the Øya festival which was fun and tiring. I'm working full time in a kindergarten now, but it's completely new so all we're doing is plan stuff and buy stuff and hang out and decorate. It's fun.

I'm staying in Oslo for the rest of the year so if anyone nearby wants to do something sometime, let me know, I don't have a lot of stuff to do.

I envy all of you peoples who are going back to school or starting over at a new school or traveling all over. Enjoy it!

Err, right now (well, on Tuesday which was when I wrote this) Don Martin from Gatas Parlament is walking on the edge of the roof outside my window.

Takk og farvel

Jeg fikk en KJEMPEklem av Jostein i går. Jeg kommer til å savne dere alle sammen, selv de av dere jeg aldri har snakka med.

The beginning of the end

I'm currently writing a home exam about the music and sound in Reservoir Dogs. It's interesting and I'm learning a lot, but I'm sick and tired of writing now. Luckily it's all over soon, only a few more pages. But I kinda don't want it to be over. I've had so much fun in Lillehammer the last couple of months. I've met some amazing people here, and only pretty recently started expanding my social network in my class (which previously was narrowed down to those five amazing people already mentioned). I wish I had the chance to get to know the new acquaintances better, but I'm leaving in a week and not continuing here next semester. I don't know, I guess I could keep in touch with them somehow, but I feel like I don't know them well enough for it to be natural. We'll see. I'll get over it.


Trying to make some sense of it all,
but I can see it makes no sense at all.

På forelesning

Jeg kjeder meg på forelesning og kan ikke tegne hoder, hender og bein.

Framtida

Jeg burde lese til dokumentareksamen som er i morgen, men istedenfor sitter jeg her etter å ha sett x antall episoder av serier jeg følger med på. Jeg har klart meg greit på eksamen før uten at jeg har lest nevneverdig. Det årnær sæ nok uansett, på en eller annen måte.

Gleder meg til ferie. Gleder meg også til å starte med emnet Fjernsyn etter jul, det lover bra. For tida drømmer jeg om å ta bachelorgraden min i New York (jeg har på meg I heart NY-t-skjorte) og jeg har sånn halvveis begynt søknadsprosessen. Tidligere i høst har jeg gleda meg til å komme hjem til mamma for å fortelle henne alle de nye planene jeg har for framtida, de har nemlig forandra seg hver gang jeg har vært hjemme. Først var det å flytte hjem neste høst og jobbe for så å jobbe frivillig i Berlin og/eller Lisboa. Så ville jeg gå på skole i New Zealand og gangen etter det var det i Canada rundt Toronto. Nå er det i New York. Og denne gangen tror jeg det kommer til å sitte litt lenger. Det er litt av en by.

Tjue er foreløpig ikke noe særlig annerledes enn nitten, men jeg liker det.

Teen years

This is my last week as a teenager. I will never be a teenager in Oslo again. Tomorrow is my last day in Norway as a teenager. I'm turning 20 next Wednesday, the 26th. I'm not as sentimental as I seem, it's just a weird thought. I feel kinda old, but I know I'm still young. Twenty years. There are so many things I haven't done yet, but I'm pretty content with where I am in life. And I think I got an A on my Film History exam, but I have to double check when StudentWeb is up and running again tonight 'cause I don't really believe it.

Going to Amsterdam tomorrow with some people from my class, we're going to the International Documentary Film Festival there. I'm excited. And after that I'm going to Copenhagen and then to Oslo. As someone in her twenties. I'll be in Copenhagen on my birthday.

Listening to Westlife now, while being nostalgic? I don't know. I liked them when I entered the teen years and I still like them now when I'm leaving the teen years. Wow.

My life is good, it really is. And it has been. I've had some bad times during these years, but I'm too positive to not be content and think happy thoughts about it all. It all made me who I am today, or some cliche like that, and I like who I am today most of the time.

Nineteen was great. Here's to hoping twenty will be even better. Cheers.

Blogging og filmer og reiser

Skreiv dette på mobilen 4. august 2008:

Jeg lurer på om jeg kanskje skal gjøre om dette til en slags reiseblogg. Har vært hjemme fra New York i halvannen måned, så har jo ikke noe mer å skrive om det. Bare at jeg savner det sykt. Har tatt mye buss i det siste. Først til København for å være noen dager i sommerhuset mamma hadde leid et stykke utafor byen, var ålreit (jeg la ut noen bilder på min flickr-profil for en del uker sida). Tok båt hjemat med brorsan og mor. Noen dager etter det tok jeg buss tur-retur Lillehammer for å se på høyskolen der som jeg skal begynne på om ei uke. Har hytte rett utafor byen, så sov der. Pappa+1 var der og kjørte meg rundt. Leste ferdig Beatles for andre gang og begynte på nytt på bussturen hjem.

Jeg leste den ikke ferdig den tredje gangen. Begynte å lese Bly for andre gang da jeg kom hjem, men har ikke giddi å lese den ferdig heller. Vil egentlig ikke begynne på den siste boka (Bisettelsen) fordi noen dør (jeg veit vel egentlig hvem, men ikke si det fordetom) og jeg vil ikke at noen av dem skal dø. "Det er jo bare en bok" yada yada.

Jeg er fortsatt i Lillehammer, trives på skolen og folka her er bra. Byen er mindre bra, men nå er jeg vant til det. Vant til at butikken er et kvarter unna på sykkel, at siste bussen går kvart på ett onsdag til fredag, at det aldri er en dritt å finne på bortsett fra quiz noen dager og øl.

Jeg har fortsatt lyst til å ta bacheloren min i New Zealand, ser i skolekatalogene nesten hver kveld etter at jeg har lagt meg. Nerd? Hah. Jeg har det fint. På tirsdag ville jeg for første gang som jeg kan huske se en film som ville få meg til å gråte. Dessverre så vi The Piano på skolen som ikke var gråtemateriale at all. Brukte et kvarter på biblioteket på skolen i dag til å finne en gråtefilm å leie, vi får se om jeg klarte det når jeg ser filmen. Jeg lånte en del andre filmer også.

Magnolia (som forhåpentligvis får meg til å gråte)
Jenter
Vinterkyss (vi så den på skolen i går, men jeg måtte skulke for å jobbe med oppgaveinnlevering, gruer meg egentlig til å se den haha)
Metropolis (fordi den Fritz Lang-filmen vi har på pensum, M, var awesome)
Junebug (den ser søt ut)

Tror ikke jeg gidder å se noen av dem i kveld, er i Scrubs-modus.


Skal til Berlin med noen venner om ikke så lenge, vi skal på Of Montreal-konsert. Glær mæ ææææææ! Og i slutten av november (forhåpentligvis på bursdagen min!) skal klassen på dokumentarfilmfestival i Amsterdam! Og jeg vil ta flere piercinger i øra.

Sånn kan det gå, sa brura og stappa kuken i vepsebolet

Edumacation

I dag har jeg lyst til å ta bachelorgraden min i New Zealand.